What Leaving School Feels Like


As of yesterday, I have officially finished 11 years of school.

Yesterday was my last day of school here in this town. I'm moving out next year, to go to sixth form in another city. I'm happy and excited for that, but there are so many things I'm going to miss about my current school.

I've been here for the past four years. The first three were filled mainly with confusion and a feeling of isolation, but this past year has possibly been the best year of my life.

The teachers here have helped me so much. Sure, some of them suck, but there were also great ones. Teachers who would stay after school and tutor me, encourage me, comfort me, and accept it when i couldn't hand in work on time. They were helpful and nice, always, and I'll miss them.

And then there are my friends. As I mentioned, the first three years here weren't the best in terms of friendship. I made good friends, but they weren't right for me. I couldn't tell them my innermost thoughts, and I couldn't trust them to be there for me whenever. This year, that's all changed. I found myself a new group of friends. They love me and appreciate me, and although they're years older and will be strewn across the globe next year, I desperately want to keep in contact with them.

Someone has also come into my life this past year, and she has quickly become one of my best friends. We've been in the same class since the beginning, know she won't judge. Instead, she'll give advice and make jokes about it, to cheer me up.
but weren't any more than acquaintances. We're opposites, so I suppose the phrase 'opposites attract' is true. Even so, I don't think we've ever had a fight. We bicker and tease each other constantly, but no one makes me happier than she does. I can tell her everything, and I

I don't think any of them realise how much they've done for me. Without them, I truly don't think I'd be ready to move out next year. They're fun to be around. They invite me out, they come over to bake cupcakes with me, and they comfort me when I'm a crying mess, without even asking why.

Their individuality has helped me love myself. Their fearlessness, their confidence, has taught me that I don't need to be afraid to be myself, because they will accept me no matter what.

This post is all over the place and very emotional, but I'm sure you all know the feeling. This place, this school, that I've belonged to for the four most important years of my life is no longer mine. Sure, I can come back and visit, but it's not the same. I won't walk along the same corridors again, laughing and joking with the people I love most.

Not every day has been good, but I wouldn't trade that for the world. The people I've met, the memories I've made and the confidence I've gained here at this school means more to me than I could ever explain, to myself, to you guys, or to the people in question.

I never thought my last day here would make me cry. I've been counting down to this day for the past year, and now that it's here, I would do anything to just have a few more days here.

I did a post similar to this a few weeks ago, where I talk about my #1 biggest fear in life.


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  1. Aw this is such a lovely post read. I had a very different attitude to leaving school- I couldn't wait to get out. I had grew out of it completely and everyone in it. It was just me against & my best friend against every one else!

    It was so lovely your experiences though I wish you all the best with sixth form xx

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    1. I can see that, and you're lucky to have a best friend who stood by you at least! I think in a way I do feel ready, and I'd be really down if I had to do yet another year, but now that the time has come I'm just feeling nostalgic! Thank you, you too :) <3

  2. Hopefully sixth form is as good as your last year at school, lovely post xx

  3. Aw this was so emotional and heartfelt! I know you will love sixth form though :) I'm sure it will be a really great next step for you. X


    1. Thank you, I definitely hope so! Thanks for the comment lovely <3

  4. Aw it's always hard leaving somewhere that you know well and then moving to a completely new environment but it's the beginning of a new chapter and you'll love it! X

    1. Thank you! I know, I'm scared, but as you said, I'm sure I'll love it!

  5. This is so lovely Amanda! I wish you loads luck with your move and with sixth form - I hope it's as great as this past year!

    Jemima x

  6. This is a beginning of a new chapter and I know even though you'll miss school you'll have the time of your life with your new sixth form. It's so lovely that you've had great memories and you'll enjoy making new ones too. Good luck with everything and please keep us updated on your move and how it goes :) xxx


    1. Thank you, I certainly hope so! Don't worry, I'm sure there'll be an abundance of posts coming in august/september to let you know how it's going! :) xx

  7. Love this post Amanda! I know exactly how you feel, after just leaving the school I have been attending to for the past 7 years (secondary school and sixth form) I feel the same, yet I also feel completely ready to move on. It is a strange feeling leaving school, one minute your there, the next your gone, it all goes so fast!
    I wish you all the best for your next chapter in your life, I'm sure it'll be amazing :) xx

    1. It really is! I've been waiting for this for years, but it has all come so quickly! Thank you so much, you too <3 x